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"Do you ever get those moments where life hits you like a wave? In those down moments, like when you're in the shower, in a bathroom stall holding yourself together, lying in bed scrolling through your phone. They come from no where and hit you hard, all your motivation for what you were doing flowing out of you so quickly you'd think it wasn't there in the first place.
My eyes feel heavy as I stare at myself in the mirror. A person I know so well but don't stares back at me. I keep a reputation of cool-assurance. That I don't need validation from others no matter how much I crave even a smile being sent my way. I wear masks, different ones for each person. Happy go-getter for my leadership camps, cool-assurance in school, vague sympathy and borderline apathetic about everything with friends because what they say hurts me but I let it wash over me hoping it won't echo back in my head when I'm alone.
And while I stare at my reflection, I see my face uncovered and wonder what the hell am I doing? What's the point of pretending to be okay for people who don't really care? Maybe they do but my mind switches care for disinterest?
I just kinda wanna lean back, sink into a tub of water and sit in the silence. I want to be able to stop thinking, just for a moment. Stop worrying and wish away the world so I can breathe, even if it's just a lung full of water and I choke.
I want to stop having to worry about the next day, to stop thinking of everything I don't want to do because my motivation is getting sucked from me like a vacuum on high without a way to turn it off.
I want to sleep and not wake up, for a while.
I want to be able to look at tomorrow and not dread having to live through it.
I want to be able to look at the future with happiness in my heart and hope in my lungs, but all I have is this fungus growing in them making it hard to breathe.
I want tomorrow to be over but never come, I want to stay in my room and stare at the ceiling and think over everything I've ever done. I want to lay here, do nothing, zone out and think of nothing but the buzzing of my fan and the sounds of cars passing on the highway.
I want today to be over and tomorrow to never come.
But until I can wish it true, I'll put my masks back in my hand ready to switch at the slightest sign. I'll stare at my reflection in private as my eye bags grow and my mind fills with thoughts I wish I didn't have to think.
I wish tonight would be quiet, and I'll keep hoping it till my eyes can close and I can sleep." - Anonymous

(Im in desperate need of a therapist)

This is kinda embarrassing but I do sing and if u rlly want to hear like actually wanna do that to urself you can here: https://youtu.be/iik25wqIuFo

She/he/they/ all pronouns are welcome

Call me Romy, Frog, or Joli (tho nicknames are welcome)

l Pro choice l BLM l Agnostic l

l Genderfluid l Aromantic l Asexual l

Hi guys gals and non-binary pals! I love frogs so Its rare you'll catch me doing a pattern without one.

Im slightly obsessed with Alex Fierro. Hands down my fav book character.

Im bilingual working on trilingual

Im artsy not sporty. I play guitar ukulele and piano and I love to paint and make digital art.

✨Frog hat is superior✨

❤Fav Artists:❤
King princess
Omar Apollo
BoyWithUke
FINNEAS
Conan Gray
Omar Rudberg
Froukje
Omar Apollo
Jeremias
Asme
Cavetown
Omar Apollo
Scheenic
Parham
Omar Apollo
D hruv
Ruel
push baby
And also Omar Apollo
Ill update if I have more but If you have an unhealthy obsession about any of these please dm me so we can talk abt them for hours🙃🙃🙃


Dm me to request patterns!

Talk. Please Im bored out of my mind.

I think thats it byeeeeeeeee